Good bye to the days of carrying babies. Good bye to the days of having issues with periods. Good bye to being chained to the house because of heavy bleeding. Good bye to keeping my husband at arms length for 2 weeks at a time. Good bye to not being able to wear white for 2 weeks at a time.
After 8 months of having issues, I finally went to the Dr. She found a couple issues, nothing life threatening just things that aren't helpful to living life fully. She gave me a choice of what could be done. This decision was a tough one, but its the right one. I am opting for a hysterectomy.
Don't pity me or feel sorry for me. Support me, Stand with me on this decision. Why? Because we (my husband and I) made a decision for no more children almost 3 years ago, so babies have been out of the question for that long. I'm happy with the 2 girls I have. Please do not tip toe around me if you are expecting. I beg you to shout your news from the roof tops. Just because we are in different phases of life doesn't mean you can't share with me. I want you to have all those wonderful moments that I had with my 2 girls as many times over as you want to. Again, just because my 2 are enough for me doesn't mean that 3 or 4 isn't right for you.
Truth is, is you will probably someday envy me because I will no longer have to carry with me those god awful feminine products. I will no longer have to worry about what time of the month it is, I will be able to wear white pants all the time, though I won't because I still have messy little girls and lets face it I come from a long line of people who spill while eating. I will also not have to endure those yearly Pap smears. I won't have to worry about cervical cancer or uterine cancer or birth control.
What I say to you, uterus, is its been fun. Well, maybe the horrible cramps and bleeding weren't, You helped me nourish and grow two beautiful babies. You worked your magic so I could give birth to them, even if your magic was painful and required a epidural to get through it. Without you uterus I would never have my girls and for that I am grateful beyond belief and would go through it again to get them. Our time grows short and I can promise you that I will not miss the rest of the stuff you have put me through.
The date for our goodbye has been set. I'm ready for August 8th to get here, but I'm even more ready for it to be over. To move past the pain and be healed from it. So there you go. 1 month and 2 days from the day I turn 37 and I will have a hysterectomy.
